Thursday, September 18, 2008

My broken Fallopian Tubes?

I heard back from my dr today, and we are going to proceed with the next step in my battles. This will entail having a procedure done at the hospital that is some catheter/xray thing. His next idea is that something is wrong with my fallopian tubes. We know that they were in proper working order at one time, so possibly something happened with my d/c or the molar pregnancy itself did something. He wants to put a catheter up there and inject dye into them to see if there is blockage or sealage. He said that if there is some mung up there (my word, not his), this injection could flush it out. He is considering the possibility that some debris or mucus could have gotten up there and mucked them up. I am going along with it because it will be good to know. But it feels like a long shot to me. The problem is, after this procedure (and if it comes out that my tubes are normal) he has pretty much run out of ideas. That means he would have to hand me over to a fertility specialist. I think he can do the next step, we talked about some lapriscopic surgery on my uterus, to look for damage to my uterus or endometriosis but I don't have any symptoms of that, but who knows. Anyway, those two things sound really expensive and stuff and so if this next step turns out fine, we are not sure where we shall go from there. If we take another step, it isn't going to be soon.
You know, this whole thing just still kind of shocks me. I never considered this as a possibility (infertility), but well here it is, something I am dealing with. Life sure throws weird things at you sometimes. I had my last real emotional breakdown about this about a year ago. Since then I have had a sense of peace about it. I've had an attitude that this is all meant to be and I am not the one controlling it, the one who is in charge knows more then I do. I am not saying I haven't had any sad or why me moments since, but they have been fleeting and my general feeling is one of peace. I so want at least one brother or sister for Scout. I want that for her so much. She even makes up a brother sometimes, and that just puts a little hole in my soul (I think it is the Charlie and Lola influence on her which is the only thing she has wanted to watch for like 3 months. She usually just makes me Charlie and is happy with that.) I am trying to accept everything with faith which can be really hard sometimes! I have had times in my life where with hindsight, I've said, wow! Now I know what that was all about and why that all happened. But while it is going on, particularly something like this, it is hard to understand. But I guess that is the definition of faith.
Allright, thanks for listening. I needed to get that off my chest a little. My doctor is trying to schedule the procedure for either tomorrow or Monday (short notice! Particularly if it's tomorrow) and we will have the results right away (be able to see the dye flow or not), so the next installment of Emily's broken ovaries will be soon. Wish me luck, I'm nervous....


**Update**

I just got back from the hospital, yeah they booked me with an hours notice and had to coordinate Rob getting Scout to preschool and then meeting me at the hospital. It was hectic but worked out well that Scout was in school for the procedure, so Rob could be there with me. Well, we found something out. I have one totally blocked fallopian tube. The other one is fine and my uterus looked good. I am currently waiting a call from my doctor explaining how this will effect me, the doc that did it, didn't explain that part, except that pregnancy should be possible, just harder. From what information I know off hand, ovaries take turns every month releasing eggs, so when it is the munged tubes turn the egg has no chance. But if they do rotate, I should be able to get pregnant when it is clear tube's turn. I don't know what to think that I have given this over a year and a half and still nothing, but we will see what the doctor says. The technician told Rob that there is a surgery that can unblock a tube, but didn't know much about it, or didn't want to say too much, we just need to see what Winky has to say.
I am a touch cheered in a way, as we now have a actual reason behind all this, and I am cheered at one good tube. Yay one good tube! I expect that both ovaries are releasing eggs, as my electronic moniter gives me a little pic of an egg every month, but what do I know?
More in the continuing saga later.......

17 comments:

Catthulin said...

Wishing you luck, Em. Call when you are done.

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

Wow, well hopefully that is the problem and it can easily be fixed. Good luck, we will be thinking about you. Keep us updated.

Emily said...

Thanks guys, I had the test done and did an update on the original blog.

Sue said...

Well this sounds like pretty good news! I'm glad I read about the mung and stuff after lunch.

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

Haha...mung, that's a cool word....Well except for when it is in your fallopian tube. At least you found out what is wrong finally! Yay for that. Hopefully it isn't too much of a big deal to get it cleared out. I hope this works and we can have another baby on the way soon! I need more cousins!

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

Haha...winky.

megandjon said...

Thanks so much for the update! I've been wondering what was going on. I'm really pulling for you, and I think Scout will have a sib, even if it's an adopted one, so you are right not to worry and just let HF take care of it! Are you feeling ok after your procedure?

Emily said...

Well, that sounds encouraging. I hope that good tube works its heart out for you. It is frustrating not knowing what is going on, so it's nice to just know something. I hope you're feeling alright and let me know what we can do for you. Just any old thing.

Emily said...

Hey thanks guys. They told me because of the flush out, after this procedure, your chances of conceiving that month go up high, so we are hoping it is good tube's month, cause it is clean as a whistle. No winky today, I suspect it is the hospitals deal, because when they did Rob's test it took over a week for the results, but when my office does something, I hear back that day. So I suppose we may have to wait a bit for more news.
I am feeling pretty good after the test, I was quite crampy for a while there, but they faded away. They are coming back right now, but cramps are cramps right? I can deal. It didn't stop Scout and I from going to get her a haircut today and going to the library. But they did stop me from doing any housework.

Sue said...

Haley, you need more cousins? Don't you have like 478 of them? Your dad has like 16 brothers and sisters, and each of them has like 10 or more kids. I know you only have 2 human ones from the Wright side, but you have 5 furry ones. Onan, Eddie, Trisha, Pedro and Tosh.

Em, I really do hope the tube thing works out for you. I would love to see a little George running around chasing my cats.

Emily said...

That's what I thought Sue! Maybe Haley has a little plot to start a cousin army to take over the world or something.
But, Haley I agree, you do need more to represent the Wright line of your army. You can use Sue's cats, but you will need to fashion smaller uniforms for them.

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

Holy. I never thought that my little comment about wanting more cousins would turn into some cousin army to take over the world! I do have plenty of cousins on my dad's side, but Sue was exaggerating just a tad. My dad has 10 brothers and sisters and I have about 75 cousins. But it is quite lop-sided. Is that how you write that word, I have never written it out?? Anyway, I just think it will be fun to have more cousins on the Wright side. That's all I'm trying to say....(in a Brian Regan voice!) Sorry, we watched two stand-up dvd's of his last night and they were great.

Emily said...

Your downfall was I "need" more cousins.

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

I need, I need! Gimme gimme gimme! I need, I need! Haha. What About Bob.

Sue said...

A cousin army to take over the world. I love it. 75 is a heck of a lot of cousins. We have like 4. I think there were a couple of others, but I never met them so they don't count.

So that Brian Regan is funny? I caught about 10 minutes of him the other night, and wasn't really impressed. Maybe I didn't give him enough of a chance. Now Jim Gaffigan, there is a funny guy. Hot Pockets!

Emily said...

That's funny. Rob and I were this close (I am pinching my fingers together) to watching What About Bob last Sunday.

Marcus and Haley Crook said...

Brian Regan is funny, you need to look up the "I Walked On the Moon" skit on you tube. It is great. I also like him because he doesn't swear up a storm. Oh I love What About Bob. Great movie.

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